Intro

 I can't really give you an explanation for the coming about of this blog. Over analysing has become an unwelcome habit.. it comes in waves.. Surges and relents.. .. 

These thoughts can free your mind with explanations.. explanations that can provide a final word, as such... 

But in tandem they tangle.. second guessing and ruminating.. 

Is there a reason? 

...But what of the contrary?? 

And so...

I can try and look into the reasoning of my drug use. A myriad of different moments, paths and people appear in mind at a moment's notice.. all of them with their part to play or place in time. Many merely a witness, but others a forceful push.

 It'd be a fair bit of labour to try and give an honest assessment of addiction.. and the web is full of personal accounts.... you can find them if you want..

Eyes Outward

Upon reflection, modern Scotland is deeply intertwined with the language of addiction.  A seemingly contradictory place of highs and lows. Great optimism for our potential, mired in the cynicism of the present.. 

..Temporary solutions are being prescribed to more long term problems.. ?

 When you're using, the problems are so clear to see. They're felt, seen. Their consequences linger.. 

Combatting the problems of modern Scotland is left up to us: The population... All those that remain after Brexit, that have survived the Benzo epidemic and are now soldiering on in an era where there are now too many jobs?

Eyes Inward 

In contrast, the problems we find within ourselves are often being left up to outside professionals. 

In my workplace (hospitality), our disputes and work conditions are dealt with by HR.. foreign workers by the dozen merely have a say over their own direction.. and the direction pay is going is down... 

However, there have never been more eateries open in a city like Edinburgh and the streets are richer because of it. 

I'm 31, in recovery, and have been for the best part of 3 years.